claris.

shutt up shutt up.
e whole world should seriously just shutt up. ive been doing everything you have asked me to do, when something bad happens , just stfu and suck it in okay. dont complain to me, and dont even try making me try explaining it to you. i dont have the capacity to be your listening near and second hand tire. wtf am i even enduring this for?

then dont lor.. wtf, easier said than done. teach me how to say 'no' to my love ones and i'll give you a million dollars.






everyone just shuttthefuckup just for a day.
thank you.

this is COOR shitt.

http://www.nearingnintynine.tumblr.com
is connected to my xanga and twitter. wanna go disconnect it from xanga so it's main function will be for artsake.

lj has been down on the apple for a few days for me.. . so......i have moved.



good bye lj and hello xanga.

hello dears...

its goodbye now for nic and i.
):

love claris.





last night the kids held a party at sarah's bro's apartment (noticing that its a studio apartment for that matter, lol. so indiscretly hinting. whatanass) ... which was pretty cool. no picts just of yet. some girls and guys took some, gotta go find their blog or summat, some really cool picts im presuming... after all, theyre all arts students. so yeahh...

im really going to miss nic. she wrote me a letter , signing of nic 100808. just like that. knowing her and adding the style of her handwriting , i kinda assumed it was some love code she wanted to write. haha... it took me a while, while fiddling with my keypad to decipher what 100808 meant. it was then that i realised 1 on your phone was a symbol keyy... damnn... haha. FINALLY it dawn upon me that perhaps, it could have been the date... -.-"

geee claris.

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to nic: OLD FRIEND BY RANCID

Good morning heartache
You're like an old friend
Come and see me again

Look up you're in Cleveland again
A solid line that never ends
I've got stories you'll never believe
And i know it i wear it on my sleeve

There must be somethin' about you that I liked but
Right here in the rain you know it just don't seem right
I always go out I never hide but in Cleveland
I should have stayed inside

[Chorus]

Testify my love for you
I know it runs deep through your body too
From the cold blacktop to the hot concrete
The old tan van it ain't so sweet

Somewhere in America in the city at night
We were far from home but you know it was gonna be alright

The unfortunate get prayed on by vultures eyes
86 cents in these pockets of mine
And you can take my money,
You can take my time,
But you can't take my heart it's in the city behind

[Chorus]

i really, really do love you too. we're moving forward love.
love c.

omg.. i said fuckk ten times over the last 20 minutes of Felon.
it was horrid !


while watching felon , i recalled upon our performing art hist lecture(it just has to be performing art doesnt it. lol) some time earlier on this week. something on greek tragedies . how its always about a heroic figure who ends up stumbling upon a series of tragic events... and i thought , "hell, this is so much alike a modern day tragedy". just that, of cos you wouldnt have man in masks or 3 man on a stage at any point of time, and ost (aka original soundtrack) has replaced choral acts. (; [damn... ive been learning]. but the ending of felon was a good one, so it isnt entirely based upon a greek tragedy, neither am i sure if it could be termed one... so yeahh.


peace out / piss out
and
loveeeee.... (:

YOU SIMPLY HAVE TO WATCH FELON. IT WAS TERRIFICALLY SCRIPTED / DIRECTED . no frills and fancy laced drama. LEAST I THOUGHT IT WAS REAL... e link is up there, so help yourself and go have some funn. i love you donkeys.

some days could have been better... (empty)
lj's been down for about a day or two, i'm more than glad to have this spill-out point open. so here goes:

wait... i cant remember what i want to say anymore.

oh, yes... now i do. belle and i are waiting for the green light to am1a, swopping w some kids who wants to stay in 1b w/o e balls to admitting to e fact that they wouldnt know what to do w/o some friends in that class. yknow what, i sound really horrid. if i WERENT e same, i wouldnt had moved over either. so yeahh. whatever. now we're still on pending the get go; orange light.

ive more to say, just that i cant really recall much.
- housekeeper's going to be away for 2 weeks. we're going to have to clean up. i actually found out im pretty particular in keeping a CLEAN place kept clean. reverting it back to its original state. yet again... im not a very clean-clean (spanking clean kinda clean) person. which explains why my desk is in sucha state.

- i emailed nic chia. but the post didnt get thro. so dearie.... email me will you? i miss you. just checked out your blog, and wanted to let you know that i love you and i definitely care. it sucks that we're a thousand hundred miles apart.

- spent my day with jer... i miss her so badly. tomorrow we're going over to house to celeb her / kalyn / yingjun's birthdays. (:




oh... i also realised that i hadnt been to the movies in 2 weeks. really awkward , cos i usually go to the theaters like once a week. here are the movies ive been building up to catch (some online aka not out in sg, or it could have been i missed it):
- FELON !! damn, i'd kill to watch it.
- bank robbery
- red cliff
- e X files . i know how sucky the trailer seems... but... i still do want to watch it. maybe... not so anymore.... time changes and so do i.
- august rush, should have watched it during the holis. but didnt get down to.
- e mummy. have have have to catch it. soon.
- mad about english
- <3 guru.

everybody , pls catch e Felon. he used to be a really good guy, everything was going well for him. actually, even better than ever (least for the point of time before how one stupid action w a protective purpose reduced him to nothing). before he lost everything he worked for just because of one new surrounding environment he was thrown into ; learning how to survive. i swear the trailer cannot justify to how the story runs.




i should really start my reading... least complete a book by tomorrow or something.

first day of school was frggn rocking. possibly due to the fact that i was chilling w teresa. its been three months and we had bonus talk. we talked trashed , listened to lecture, looked out for trash, absorbed lecture... basically, in a really crude way, talk cock sing song. haha. at lunch, our 2 hour break literally flew past.... i love my sexy bi.. (:

sad thing tho, was that we found out some dudes that were said to be given our class (am3b) schedule was actually supposed to be in anotehr class (am3a). out of the few, teresa's in them. damn.... ): so that means, we wont be hanging out much / be in the same class. shitt. i could have sweared really loudly. pout and act like a spoilt brat.

and oh! (: haha. first day of school we got our semester assignment already! whoopie... actually, im not so sure that im actually excited about it. a 2,000 word RESEARCH essay on a given artist's WORK. out of the list, i picked three potential ones, not knowing the art piece one cent. came home, googled them.... but to no avail. i even went onto artcycopedia.com mann... gee... ): maybe i should have chosen something/someone im more familiar with. like picasso or duchump or le cob or alex clader..... but then again, i was searching for something w alittle more challenge. someone i havent researched on before... hmm... ive 13 weeks till submission of this essay anyhoos. so yeahhhh...






theres going to be a lot of reading thooooo..




and oh... teresa's schedule is wayy awesome. she's on a 3day study week. fri's out attachment days. im on a 4day study week. thur's we have alternate lessons for crit writing. ): i'd only be seeing her on mon and wedd.

im feeling fabulous!! whoopiee. and ive no idea whyyy. maybe its cos i got my time table in, like FINALLY. hahha.



im guessing e pict is a little unclear here, actually.... very unclear. but owells. too lazy to revert e size. or maybe, i just dont know how . haha. owells. im in class AM3B. woots!! haha... i got a really good feeling im w teresa. awesome. i think .haha. actually, im more glad for e fact that my student portal's up. cos ive been really pissed w it for a while now.. not meaning to insult t or anything. haha, she knows i love her.

anyhoooos.... came back from dfac, mom and cel thought im really pink. haha. yayy. (gee, ive no idea why im so excited over that either). im  just really highhhhhh. and ooo. ive this sunglass tan line sculptured under my eyes cos i snitched xl's sunnies. coool. never had one before. i mean, a sunnie tanline. hahah. god, i feel really retarded right now. damn.. butttt. YAY.

tomorrow i'd be hanging out w niccc. yayy... ive a good feeling im starting to sound a little weirdly crazy right now, right here. crazy as in not sane.

http://www.friendster.com/photos/4262834/1/738378159#
dear xy,
thanks so much for always being there for me. when i ditched you, i didnt even ask. im so sorry. ): you had always been so understanding. constantly being there for me, since like.... since i've met you !! goshh! i think im really blessed to have a friend like you, and i sincerely thank ddy g for that. you've been more than a friend to me, youre almost like my sister , my basic (lol, if you still remb what it means.) i probably couldnt be showered any more love than you've given. so im glad you found someone that can. im honestly sincerely really awfully happy for you!! haha. wo ai ni duo duo (many many). thanks dear, i truly appreciate it. ive no idea what else i can say to express my gratitude. hope you understand me.
love c.
p.s thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you. and i wrote all those "thank you" w my own fingers okay. i didnt copy and paste. haha... just so yknow. (; i love you, thank you.

xy has always been there for me. and i love her so. she's my bestee. no one could ever ask for more. dear ddy g, thank you for placing her in my life. thank you even more for allowing her to get to know you. i could not have done it, but e prayers ive prayed have been answered thro haohong and a few others. dear g, you've not failed me. and thank you. thank you for letting me know im heard, even when i feel your presence e least. (: love c.

okay, a few things since sun:

-1. happy birthday mommy. today. celine , cheryl and i got her a pair of trainers. she's been looking to get one, but never really gotten down to actually making e purchase. so anyway.... cel and i headed down to nike womens on mon to grab her a nice pair. last night tho, i dreamt that she scolded us for buying it, saying it was a waste of money or whatsoever. lollll... i hope that'd never happen. wonder if she's seen e shoes yet.

everybody, say hello to nike air butrfi lo.


-2. i think it was sun that , i saw this guy clad in total CLOT / ACU wear. hahahaha... theres not clot / acu store here in sg. so when i see a dude wearing their stuff, i always react surprised. e guy was wearing e nice rainbow clot tee, but e horrible slip ons. hahha.... nonetheless, impressive that you got those stuff on. kudos young man.

okay, yknow what. im so pissed at trying t find e shirt he's wearing. and the site's got some stupid copyright thing going on. so heres the page. great, thanks for letting me not show your fantastic shirts but e stupid shoes. so annoyed. the shirt was nicee.. ):



-3. sch's starting next week, umm... my student portal isnt up yet. im going to have to make a call. ): damnit. seems that e class and timetable posting is up there. damnit damnit damnit. why cant they put it on learning portal. wayyy easier for me. haha. oright. my email's being thrown around e school's many departments. so lets just see how by the end of today / start of tmr. if im not up on e portal, im going t make my call. i wanna know my schedule, so that hopefully i can earn some bread to feed me.

-4. spectra's coming up next to me !! yayy. im so excited. e idea sounds fantabulous. it sounds like my kind of thing. a potential place for me to work at. fnb / outdoor / artist studios / galleries... yes yes yes. all me. i really hope spectra works out t become a brilliant enterprise, its almost like some dude has a vision similar like mine. but his in fact, is making reality. gee! so exciting. p.s it's so near my house, everytime i jog past e firestation, adrenaline rushes thro my veins and im all pumped up. cant wait.

-5. met johanna last week while at camp , she was doing belaying at rockwall.. and i was tending t the kids. we hooked up. loll, not in that sense... gee, stopp mistaking what im saying. we hooked up, she's got my number and i hers. we met for literally an hr before we parted [ i had to go to off to e next station]. yesterday she called up, said that she's freelancing somewhere else asked me if i were interested. apparently, e pay she got was better than what i was doing. which was true, but... im really skeptical about this whole idea. it sounds stupid. but nonetheless, im going to step out of e sterotype and try making it work for myself. i have to, just least try. its some fiery punishment t myself for thinking its stupid. i just gotta have a fight. this' at venture era and im going to be selling products... -.- see how excited i am. interesting.

-6. i remembered once hazli and adam [malay tounge , a-dam. but i love calling him adam. its so hott] were telling me about chn 69. on how its some sex channel. or something along those lines. well, dearies, news for you. i have cable, and yesterday i found out chn 69 is actually some AFC channel. apparently, the only thing they ever show on that channel is cooking. hahahha.... you guys are such dweebs but i still love you both. i miss those times we'd hang out outside mimo at 4-5am , waiting for transport t pick us up, and we'd talk and talk and i'd fall asleep on e lounge chair. and you'd guys be e sweetest t me evertime i go work. (: owen called hannah t ask me t work supperclub. that means adam will be there, if i ever go back, adam it'd be for you. (: i miss you. tho, of cos , the amazing pay would be an incentive, 10 and hr. whatthehell. but, work hours from 9 to 4 . am that is.

-7. nic's leaving on e 11th. baby ash texted us [cheryl / nic and i ] last night. he said e sweetest nothings and i melted. thanks dear. you mean a whole lot to me. tho we're not talking and hanging out as we used to, you know that im watching out for you. afar, but still onlooking you k. i remember ash and i kicking it hard, talking and chilling. he'd call t rant and vent his problems. and i'd just listen, trying to find his fighting spirit (in a gd way). we used to have lunch and i'd listen to his stupid adventures in school earlier in the days. see his massive blood stains on his school uniform cos some retarded stunt he'd perform. we'd hang out at e esplanade, watching bands do their sound check, and he'd wait for me to start work. we'd lie on stupid platforms and be mesmerised by e wide vast sky / sea and allow e world t make us feel so small. but know, that we're together working hard, trying to make things work. dear ash, i dont ever ever ever want to grow up if i ever ever ever had a choice. ): things changed when i didnt know you once ran away from home to balmoral till e weekend came, things changed when i had t find out you were made to stay back a yr aft months. things changed when we all were forced to move forward. i miss you dear. so much.

i guess that's enoug reads for now. ): im starting t feel all emo. haha. owells. (:
thinking, maybe i should go for a jog now. meet xy for breakie. run off t training at v.era . come home. we gotta celeb mom's birthday.

happy birthday mommy. i love you. thanks for always helping me out whenever i need to . thanks for giving me all e freedom i can actually ever ask for. thanks for creating me e environment for me t work in, watching me stumble and fall, but always being there t hear me out and then subsequently watching me pick myself up once again. love c.

didnt know i was going to stay over at nic's on sat aft our meeting w chris. loll. hung out, met timmy. went over to her place at night, and people started coming in. loll. there wasnt supp to be a "party", but i guess when people misses people, we'd hollar. in e end, aft vin sent his girl home, he came over to catch a movie. nico and anton came by at 1ish from a walk from MY / nico's place. hahaha. really weird. so there were so many people hibernating in nic's oh-so-small room. kinda cute. the gang ordered 40 pieces of nuggets (gang meaning , nic cher tim and vin. least at that time, the gang was structured by those few) and gobbled it all up. apparently , i was sleeping. yeahyeahh, food and alone. hahah. dont call (regarding to another sad sad issue. it hurt. but i dont know what to tell you dear, i love you so much. yet we try to build a wall over each other so that we wont have to go thro it a 2nd time. or perhaps, we're both just as arrogant and ignorant. damnn. i'd seriously hate to admit that)

anyhoos. got a lift from her dad to church, i asked tim cher and nic to go first, i wanted to sleep in a little more. and take my time to go thro nic's clothes. stole a sweater , mwhahha.

and the day went past fast. in the evening, yuan and i went for xy's recital. really cool. hahha. boring but cool. they had some really awesome pieces and had a little singalong phantom of e opera session. which literally blew my mind away. frggin cool. met a few peeps at e recital. benn haohong and xer-zuan all couldnt recognized me, least i heard that three times from e three people. hahah. guess that theyre not used to seeing me in my girlie extreme. hahha... omg, im starting to enjoy being femine and wearing pretty dresses.

hung out w her fam aft e recit.. kinda funn, talked quite a bit. met her aunt for e first time, she's nice, friendly. intro-ed my "date" (yuan) to them. hahhaa.. her mom's really cute, thought tt yuan and i were going out. as in going goinnng out. whichever. aft which, yuan and i headed down to al alzharr . and i just got home. hadnt met yuan in two weeks, not a record. we ve done wayy longer. even so..... hahha... i miss my dudeee!! glad we got to talk so much today. yayy.

this week im going to be very bored. ): pout.

anyhoos, found good read/ site. http://postsecret.com (try blogspot or secretS if unable to get thro.) heres parts to look at.

OMG. it was such an amazing movie ! loved it, simply loved it.
when they said heath legder is e bomb, i can totallae see why [now].




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more importantly, movie's ost was brilliant. e band's vocalist had this meg and dia band thing going on. haha. nice.

now, off to look for some holiday promos. yes yes yes. holidays. but dont think i can leave any time soon. sighh. cant wait for sch to start, wonder who's gonna be in my class. pls pls pls let there be some reallae cool peeps. hope T will be in my class, if not... hahah. ): sch's starting soon, and this month has passed by really quickly. sorta. mom's birthday's coming up in a few days, ive yet to decide what i wanna do. cheyr's probably whipping up a meal ... i wished we'd have malay food. cos i know thats mom's fav, but cher's got an easy cooking chef thing for western meals. less of her, more of me now, what am i supp to do on my part? damn, claris, damn.


gota think.

backk and met some new friend. wow. haha... nayhoos, i ripped my thumb apart at camp and didnt notice till i got back. well, not really. but thats just the outline of e story. even so , its still wayy better than e story of pointing your middle finger wayy too much and thus ending up w a sore covering e facts which, btw, is hilarious. wanna know how it goes? well, e kid basically smash the car door on her finger.


LOL
right nicc? haha... i love you much tho.





): nic's leaving soon. tmr theres tea w the mahs and sun's e recital. woots.
oh. ps. about camp, damnnn... i never got bitten so much in my whole entire life. not . but this round, i swear, the mosquitoes had a blood buffet party going on. 10 of their soliders died while out at war in my hands. mwahhahaha. not. ): cos im e one itching really.

wonder how cheryl and friends will do at the crowbars ceremony/awards tonight. excited excited excited.

headed down to church and helped cher do a light testing for the warmth photo shoot we were supp to have aft oc, which apparently didnt happen cos we wanted to keep a solemn mood this sunday. pls tilt head before looking.






so no warmth photo shoot, but we decided to go out play w the cam nonetheless. heres cheryl and i. for the many kiddies who have yet to know, cher and i are siblings binded by Blood. so no joke. (;



hehe. heres two of my closest bros. timmy and alvin. never really had your picts up here before. but hey guys, thanks for watching over me all this while. im still waiting for the retro party picts, vin. haha.


for all the following picts, danii (lady in pinkk) is cheating. if not, im definitely not the shortest alright. hahaha. danni, stop w all your heels mann. i dont like them. theyre not pict friendly. and ohhh! big shout out to one of the kids ive known the longest, asherchongwenzhi. haha. ash thought i got a really pretty dress. thanks baby bro. (: its my happy dress.




heres to bennyboo whom i look out for a lot. peace out my other brudder. loll. i just realised , i have A Lot of brothers at church. hahaha... i wonder whyyy. but those 4 dudes i mentioned above, are the kids i really love no less than my fam.




aft which....... ben / tim / vin / keith / shane / jj / andrew and i went down to catch the dark knight! oh mannn. youve no idea how long ive been thinking about catching that movie. but shitt. i think i need to go watch it another time, i didnt get some parts. bat man was sooooo cool. joker was even cooler. oh man oh man. (; now, gotta change and go find xy for dinner. yayyyy! i miss her.

okay, so aft my 12 hrs of sleep last night, i woke up this morn feeling really restless. thus i declared today " My FAKE Birthday" ... yayyy!! (yeah, i know. pretty retarded) was just kidding w mommy and cher bout it, but guess what... we went out and bought back cakesss. pretty little cakes from canele. ummm... pretty little cakes should come in pretty little boxes, tho the box wasnt all that little, it sure was indeed very pretty.




im not much of a choco flavored anything fan (i only like solid choco) , but e cakes we got were apparently all chocolateyish. nonetheless, very good... the pretty little cakes. (:


i also went out to buy myself a happy dress. from the pict it doesnt look very happy, cos i didnt bother to adjust e cam. but believe me, its a happy dress. (:

jer and yuan wanted to come over today for dinner. they wanted to make curry udon or something along that line. but im sorry kids that i came back pretty late and had to cancel the dinner. was out w the fam. (well, just mommy actually) . cel had a bowling competition at the club just, she came in 2nd. congrats baby sis. (: i love you.

bad news:
i totally blew up my phone's camera. suchan .... arghhhhh. ): dont ask why. i gotta go change it tmr.

i also forgot i had to help pong do up MAD in the Gap logo by wed. shitt. no inspiration... bleaghhh. no wonder why i wanna quit design, think i'd probably do up a quick on fiddling w typography.

im backkk. it was really good. more successful, cos im learning even more. im going to try and be better next round yet.

made more good friends. and had an awesome time w e friends i made from before [ hairil / chii / ma il ] ... hhahaha. so yes, thank you all for looking aft me. i never really said it out loud , but yes, its been exactly what ive been feeling. i heart you deep depp.

BOB 08's tonight, i didnt know. im not going. none of the kids are playing i think. well , maybe delorean. but im not sure. so heckk. heh. im terribly drained out right now. my legs are coordinating right. and i just keep thinking of batman.... i really really do wanna watch the dark knight. so kids, hollar me out some time soon PLS.

dear yuan, thanks for your shoutout. miss me then miss me lar. hahha. (: i thought of you too, while at camp. mwahhhhaha. not much stories to tell , but nonetheless still stories. so cant wait to meet up w you. and umm... dearie, xy saved two tix for us. thats really sweet, cos she initially didnt have enouff. you wanna go? hollar back yeah? love you much dude. love clar is.

today was really good. gotta meet up w xy and hy. theyre reallly cool dudes, so yesssh. talked quite a bit to xy heheehe... (; tmr im meeting them again, and i alrdy have stuff to talk i wanna tell xy about. yess-ness.

camp's on wed. chiyi will be there. yayy. (: he's damn nicee. and i'd be working w two other familiar people, hairil and ismail so .... i hope all'd be good. lml, anywayyy... a little excited, been wanting to get out of the house over the past week, tho... thats exactly what ive been doing even w/o camps. haha. pretty funn, meeting and chilling out w people, partyinng.

tmr:
- pack
- bugis w the kids
- bs: i think theyre planning to go to the hospital to check out some dude , if not it'd be heading over to ming's.

lastly, one of my bestee's bro landed up in hospital. apparently his intestine's being gnawed out (or according to my bestee, blown out) ... think i should go visit him some time soon. take care dud (not that you'd read it or anything.)

ripped, cutt and paste off jer's blog... it's so funny,i cant help myself:

i feel like a vomiting machine. yest. came home from breakfast w the kids [timmy, cher, nic, benn, rach, d&d, jj, kieth] at the party. slept a little bit more before heading out to find xy before meeting jer. so i thought i was fine, but while w xy, felt pretty sick and i puked out my breakfast in the toilet. definitely felt better, but while waiting for jer at dempsey bus stop, stomach queesiness kicked in. couldn take it, hollared jer to head home w me. im so sorry dear. at home, i went for another round of the breakfast throw up. went to sleep. woke up, was texting hairil (yayy. holidayy.) and i puked my breakie part 3 out again.

im quite surprised at how long breakfast can get stuck in your stomach yknow. had breakfast in the morn, say 10 or 11 latest. and i was still puking it out at 5 plus. wth? either that, or my sandwich had to be a rather big sandwich.

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three things:

first thing first, cheryl (my all powerful superhero women sister) got into crowbar awards finalist(s). lol!!! its so cool. her group and all.. which cat. tho, i have no idea. i think they sent entries to almost all cats. so... yeahh. kudos big sis. she's really talented, so im not surprised. damnn, i really wanna be like her too. i love you dear.

2nd thing, we're having a party at timmy's later. its gonna be superstar themed. yayy. so exciting. hehe. darren's coming by in half an hour to pick us up and head over to tim's . and i havent even thought of what im going to wear, much less shoving them into a pack. cheryl's got to pack up some cooking equipements too. gotta help. nic's rading my closet right now, pickiiing out something to wear. so yayyy... partyyyy! hehe. so yeah, you just gotta come back later for tonight's party picts.

3rd point.
cut , ripped and paste off jer's blog.
"Metup with clar babe 2days back for dinner at Al Azhar,bukit timah. We were suppose to share a plate of nasi bryani together,in the end,i ate almost the entire plate of it. And there goes cute clar saying:" I am visually eating.. see see. " Went to Liquids cafe to chat further about our camps and yuan came along after his violin lesson. Ordered a beer and started chatting crazily. Seriously miss both of them alot,ALOT.."

loll... omg dearie. i ate lar, and its not cute. i was full, remember?? POCKY. (: anywayy, i Lurpp you too. hahah. i'd see how about tomorrow k? liase w yuan. <3

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.... douch! nic just commented aft looking at the polaroids i stuck on my wall above my bed, "you look so small next to ben yknow." .... thanks nic. i was wearing heels. ):